Regina 
I felt the heat rise, and I heard my tone of voice change. These little wild things were not quite comforming to the plan I sketched out for our day. Ever idealistic me getting bent out of shape over reality. And why is the two year old screaming again? My impatience spilled out all over them. The conviction came forthrightly. I caught it at once, yet somehow felt a little powerless to reel the impatience in. But that feeling was a lie, perhaps one every mom falls for. The truth is we can repent of and even kill our sin. The Spirit of God doesn’t live within us for no purpose, does He? The indwelling power of the Spirit of God is the sole reason we can all overcome our everyday sin that’s trying to overcome our soul. Sin shall not be master over us.
Everyday sin can be the most dangerous. It hardens our hearts as patterns of sin settle down into the fabric of our lives. These aren’t the obvious sins and aren’t necessarily apparent. These are the hidden sins that our culture encourages us to coddle because “it’s just a hard season,” “you deserve a break,” “you need some ‘me time.'” Impatience, quick anger, discontentment, undisciplined living… These sins are common to life, but especially common to motherhood.
Guilt. It’s the internal tug we feel when we’ve failed to live out the fruit of the Spirit again. Hopeful new momma to the veteran momma of a basketball team (warm smile), the thing you need to know is that we will fail but we can always, immediately, change our course.
The unfolding of Your Word brings light, it gives understanding to the simple. Psalm 119
The Bible calls that change of course, repentance and for the Christ follower that glorious grace is always within reach. The lie of culture tells you your sin is ok. The lie of condemnation tells you that you’re guilty and cannot change. The Gospel says neither lie is true. Coddle sin long enough though, and it will ensnare you. Coddle self long enough and you will find that your comfort and preferences hold more value than truth. Refuse either deception and choose to turn hard away from sin.
I look at my children. The sound of my impatience hanging in the air. I have a choice. I get to choose the course. My attitude is not the same attitude as Christ Jesus, but Scripture promises victory over this and any sin. I look for the way out. I rehearse the Scripture I helped them hide in their own young hearts. And I stop and I pray out loud and more than once, “Help me Lord, weak incapable me. Forgive my sins and cleanse. Even now change my course. In Jesus name Amen.”
Sin shall not be master over you. We echo David in the Psalms, “Do not let iniquity have dominion over me, then I shall be blameless and innocent of great transgression.”
